Maybe I should start using this again

I have not posted here in a long time.

Today's Gratitude List

Sobriety - A gift only HP can give when I let him

HP - My HP does Miracles in the here and now, today is a miracle.

the program - my daily reprieve and NOT my own doing, very spiritual on an increasing basis these days.

my home - beautiful, peaceful, stately, quiet.

the beautiful North Shore of Lake Superior

my health - excellent

Aaron - super friend and was great support

Don - a quiet powerful man and a good friend, and really really funny. Really a gift in my life.

Leo V. - my sponsor and a real inspiring guy.

Victor - he cares and that is wonderful. He is also a great cook.

Damien - Superb actor and a good man and extremely psychic, a lot of blessing in a man. I would love to have him as my son.

Mark Johnson - superman
Randy - wonderful friend

Andrew Groos - intellectual, thoughtful, provacative

Jakub - an awesome man

Steve V - Brother in work and mission and focus

Ross U - what can I say, beautiful, inside and out. Growing and loving

Oscar - friend, and a kickass woman, I pray for her health.

Josef O - fascinating man

Mikey - gifted and insightful, and sometimes a little Puck.

Ronnie T - an awesome man and a gift to know

Dusty Rose - an artist and a good man

Dustin - powerful, insightful, insane thinker, and a thoughtful man

Jim - my best friend and a real rock

Larry - a good guy and Jim's significant other and fun and funny.

Duane - a superb man and a wonderful friend. An Iphone addict too!

Beryl Wells - my favorite insane artist and phenomenal woman of the world

Virginia Howard - One awesome woman

Harry Waters - Fantastic Director and Drama Coach on the M4D Project

Steven - good friend and nuttier than a fruitcake. I am not sure how he makes it but he does.

Rob - the man who completed Duane's life

Pastor Alika - who breaks open the word like no one else and keeps me working on the connection with Jesus.

Pastor Ralph - a great teacher

the folks at Liberty Presbyterian - my family with prayers and support

my mom and dad - gone but here

Anise Flesh - super woman and grand teacher

Bill - my wonderful brother who goes way beyond in support and care

Noel - my sister in law who understands

Eric - my eldest Nephew, back here from the east coast.

Lucinda - the wonderful wife of my Nephew Eric

Nate - the funny and fun second Nephew

Jessica - Nate's wonderful wife and a grand woman

Lydia - Eric and Lucinda's little daughter

Evie - Eric and Lucinda's newest little daughter

Astrid - Nate and Jessica's Daughter
Thorston - the newest White

Minnesota - I love this state

Tara - A great member of Kwanzaa and a super prayer

Arlene - A wonderful woman of Kwanzaa

Gerry - Super woman and a woman of God from Kwanzaa

Tony M - he understands and cares and really is way beyond me in many ways

Christian - Brilliant, good man

Cassidy - a totally wonderful man, he has been given many gifts, so glad he is doing well

Timmy - Talented and gifted man, sometimes love is tough, prayin for him, I respect him greatly

Ronnie T - smart, funny, a leader

Patrick O - gifted artist and a real loving man

The Lattin Family, and all the 14 children, Beaver Bay, MN - demonstrating the Kingdom to the world

Steve H - big heart and a big man of sobriety

Michael and Debbie - Loving the world with Music

Technology - Makes a lot of things happen as a tool

Ben Speiser - Super, sweet and very intelligent

Tom Scholla - been with me for a long time

Brandon Randolph - stunning man, my own secret hero

Larry Eckhart - funny fun and devoted man

Bob Moore - gifted artist

Jo - very intelligent and very caring

Polly - awesome woman

Bill - the Judge with the mostest

Dennis Johnston - gifted therapist

the Fiddle - my drug of choice

Dan Chouinard - fantastic man of music

Sima Shumilovsky - sweet old world musician

Eric - great 12 Step man

The Meintsmas - committed and loving

Earl Lindner - rock of a man

Kevin Jackson - gifted with music

Christopher Raymond - A Mac Genius

Chris J - good program man

Leo - deepening in faith and practice

Hank - my first sponsor who is gone now but still lives in my head.

Scott - my second gay sponsor, now also gone but in my thoughts

Tsiana, an astounding heart and great source of happiness

music - heals me and excites me

Justin - friend and busy guy

Eric - friend

Clem - friend

Christian - friend

Sasha - friend

James - friend

Casey - friend

Marc J - friend

Tim K - friend

Dustin - friend

Joe L - friend

Ross M - friend

Joseph S. - friend

Mario - gifted, loving, caring man

Joseph Perry - friend and my TM teacher

Christof - friend

Max - friend

Tyler - friend

Zach - friend

Rory - friend

David and Ricky Peterson - the awesome folks of Jessica

Millie - a most awesome person, energized.

There are many others, but this is a great start on the persons, situations and things I am grateful to God for in my life.

Have not been here in a while.....

I was kidnapped by Facebook.  Kind of forgot this even existed.  I was blogging way before Facebook.  Really forced me to think in whole thoughts,  I think I will do more of this blogging.  It will be good for my brain and for my soul.

Stingy receiver

It amazes me how many people are just like me. Hank said one day,"damn it Bob, you are a stingy receiver." Bingo! I am so selfish that I refuse support out of my grandiosity. How silly.

You cannot drag me into your drama

Recently a few folks have attempted to drag me into their drama. Well sorry people, I have drama of my own. And no matter how you try, by anger, by hostility, by self pity, by being dramatic, you cannot drag me into your drama.

It is no longer possible to keep the upcoming Prostate Surgery a secret so I am talking about it openly.  I am doing pretty well with it.  I will prepare a living will and update my will before the surgery on June 8, 2015.

I could wish that I would have more care and support but I do have a lot of it.  People get into their own issues and kind of lose awareness of what is happening around them or to me.  I could wish it otherwise but that isn't the way it is. The antidote for me is to get involved with the care of others.  That is a charm with me.

This is a very interesting time.

Little bonfire in my head

I am very burned out this evening. I worked very hard today and loved it. In the evening I saw the Bloomington Civic Theaters production of "Carousel" I loved it. Some people think it hurts me when they ignore me. They are very very wrong. I am feeling the awesome blessings of the love of God and nothing can separate me from that gratitude.