The Wonder, Joy and Warmth of HP Power

OK, I give up. HP does such a better job of guiding my life and empowering my actions that it is futile to resist. Love it.

My Gratitude List for Today:

• Sobriety - A gift only HP can give when I let him

• HP - My HP does Miracles in the here and now, today is a miracle.

• the program - my daily reprieve and NOT my own doing, very spiritual on an increasing basis these days.

• Christa the Phaeton - my motorized office and companion and definitely me

• my home - beautiful, peaceful, stately, quiet.

• the beautiful North Shore of Lake Superior

• my health - excellent

• Don - a quiet powerful man and a good friend, and really really funny

• Chris M. - my sponsor and a real inspiring guy.

• Millie - a most awesome person, energized.

• Damien - Superb actor and a good man and extremely psychic, a lot of blessing in a man.

• Ronnie - friend and a kickass woman

• Mikey - gifted and insightful

• Dustin - powerful, insightful, insane thinker, and a thoughtful man

• Jim - my best friend and a real rock

• Larry - a good guy and Jim's significant other and fun and funny.

• Duane - a superb man and a wonderful friend. An Iphone addict too!

• Beryl Wells - my favorite insane artist and phenomenal woman of the world

• Virginia Howard - One awesome woman

• Aaron - Gifted, my right hand man when he is around and sometimes by phone.

• Harry Waters - Fantastic Director and Drama Coach on the M4D Project

• Ryan Rollinson - a gifted man with a spirit I admire.

• Dewey Lysen - fantastic on the keyboard

• Steven - good friend and nuttier than a fruitcake. I am not sure how he makes it but he does.

• Rob - the man who completed Duane's life

• Victor - he cares and that is wonderful

• Bobby M - gentle, caring, sweet man

• Pastor Alika - who breaks open the word like no one else and keeps me working on the connection with Jesus.

• the folks at Kwanzaa Presbyterian - my family with prayers and support

• my mom and dad - gone but here

• Bill - my wonderful brother who goes way beyond in support and care

• Noel - my sister in law who understands

• Eric - my eldest Nephew who is moving his family back here from the east coast.

• Lucinda - the wonderful wife of my Nephew Eric

• Nate - the funny and fun second Nephew

• Jessica - Nate's wonderful wife and a grand woman

• Nick - The Youngest Nephew and a brilliant musician

• Lydia - Eric and Lucinda's little daughter

• Evie - Eric and Lucinda's newest little daughter

• Minnesota - I love this state

• Tara - A great member of Kwanzaa and a super prayer

• Arlene - A wonderful woman of Kwanzaa

• Gerry - Super woman and a woman of God from Kwanzaa

• Tony M - he understands and cares and really is way beyond me in many ways

• Christian - Brilliant, good man

• Kent - Excellent Musician and slowly learning.

• Cassidy - a totally wonderful man, he has been given many gifts

• Timmy - Talented and gifted man, sometimes love is tough, prayin for him

• The Lattin Family, and all the 14 children, owners of Wit's End County Store and Bakery, Beaver Bay, MN - demonstrating the Kingdom to the world

• Steve H - big heart and a big man of sobriety

• Lois Koyama - a woman of God

• Michael and Debbie - Loving the world with Music

• Technology - Makes a lot of things happen as a tool

• Ben Speiser - Super, sweet and very intelligent

• Jason - brilliant and devoted lover of Ben

• Tom Scholla - been with me for a long time

• The Gang of Knitters around the Yarn Garage and StevenBe - creative and challenging

• Brandon Randolph - stunning man, my own secret hero

• Larry Eckhart - funny fun and devoted man

• Bob Moore - gifted artist

• Margo - sweet friend

• Jo - very intelligent and very caring

• Polly - awesome woman

• Bill - the Judge with the mostest

• Dennis Johnston - gifted therapist

• the Fiddle - my drug of choice

• Dan Chouinard - fantastic man of music

• Sima Shumilovsky - sweet old world musician

• Eric - great 12 Step man

• The Meintsmas - committed and loving

• Earl Lindner - rock of a man

• Kevin Jackson - gifted with music

• Christopher Raymond - A Mac Genius

• Chris J - good program man

• Leo - my leader and my conscience

• Hank - my first sponsor who is gone now but still lives in my head.

• Scott - my second gay sponsor

• music - heals me and excites me

• Justin - friend and busy guy

• Eric - friend

• Clem - friend

• Christian - friend

• Blaine - friend

• Sasha - friend

• James - friend

• Casey - friend

• Marc J - friend

• Tim K - friend

• Dustin - friend

• Geo - friend

• Joe L - friend

• Ross M - friend

• Joseph S. - friend

• Mario - gifted, loving, caring man

• Joseph Perry - friend and my TM teacher

• Christof - friend

• Michelle - friend

• Max - friend

• Dontray - friend

• Tyler - friend

• Zach - friend

Thanksgiving, church ladies and life

Here I am with the church ladies from the Methodist Church in Ottertail, Minnesota who every year baked wonderful things for the Pumpkin Festival at the Country Store up there benefitting Habitat in the area. They just continue to use their skills to love. They go about life not with an attitude of "what can I get out of this" but with the attitude, "I give myself to God and work to do his will." These are the folks I love to be around. They genuinely care for others. How sweet they are.

On this Thanksgiving I am hoping that everyone I know and come into contact with, know some folks like this.

My Gratitude List for Today:
• Sobriety - A gift only HP can give when I let him
• HP - My HP does Miracles in the here and now, today is a miracle.
• the program - my daily reprieve and NOT my own doing, very spiritual on an increasing basis these days.
• Christa the Phaeton - my motorized office and companion and definitely me
• my home - beautiful, peaceful, stately, quiet.
• the beautiful North Shore of Lake Superior
• my health - excellent
• Don - a quiet powerful man and a good friend, and really really funny
• Chris M. - my sponsor and a real inspiring guy.

• Damien - Superb actor and a good man and extremely psychic, a lot of blessing in a man.

• Ronnie - friend and a kickass woman

• Mikey - gifted and insightful

• Dustin - powerful, insightful, insane thinker, and a thoughtful man
• Jim - my best friend and a real rock
• Larry - a good guy and Jim's significant other and fun and funny.
• Duane - a superb man and a wonderful friend. An Iphone addict too!

• Beryl Wells - my favorite insane artist and phenomenal woman of the world
• Virginia Howard - One awesome woman

• Aaron - Gifted, my right hand man when he is around and sometimes by phone.

• Harry Waters - Fantastic Director and Drama Coach on the M4D Project

• Ryan Rollinson - a gifted man with a spirit I admire.

• Dewey Lysen - fantastic on the keyboard
• Steven - good friend and nuttier than a fruitcake. I am not sure how he makes it but he does.
• Rob - the man who completed Duane's life
• Victor - he cares and that is wonderful

• Bobby M - gentle, caring, sweet man
• Pastor Alika - who breaks open the word like no one else and keeps me working on the connection with Jesus.
• the folks at Kwanzaa Presbyterian - my family with prayers and support
• my mom and dad - gone but here
• Bill - my wonderful brother who goes way beyond in support and care
• Noel - my sister in law who understands
• Eric - my eldest Nephew who is moving his family back here from the east coast.
• Lucinda - the wonderful wife of my Nephew Eric
• Nate - the funny and fun second Nephew
• Jessica - Nate's wonderful wife and a grand woman
• Nick - The Youngest Nephew and a brilliant musician
• Lydia - Eric and Lucinda's little daughter

• Evie - Eric and Lucinda's newest little daughter
• Minnesota - I love this state
• Tara - A great member of Kwanzaa and a super prayer
• Arlene - A wonderful woman of Kwanzaa
• Gerry - Super woman and a woman of God from Kwanzaa
• Tony M - he understands and cares and really is way beyond me in many ways
• Christian - Brilliant, good man
• Kent - Excellent Musician and slowly learning.
• Cassidy - a totally wonderful man, he has been given many gifts
• Timmy - Talented and gifted man, sometimes love is tough, prayin for him
• The Lattin Family, and all the 14 children, owners of Wit's End County Store and Bakery, Beaver Bay, MN - demonstrating the Kingdom to the world
• Steve H - big heart and a big man of sobriety
• Lois Koyama - a woman of God
• Michael and Debbie - Loving the world with Music
• Technology - Makes a lot of things happen as a tool
• Ben Speiser - Super, sweet and very intelligent
• Jason - brilliant and devoted lover of Ben
• Tom Scholla - been with me for a long time
• The Gang of Knitters around the Yarn Garage and StevenBe - creative and challenging
• Brandon Randolph - stunning man, my own secret hero
• Larry Eckhart - funny fun and devoted man
• Bob Moore - gifted artist
• Margo - sweet friend
• Jo - very intelligent and very caring
• Polly - awesome woman

• Bill - the Judge with the mostest
• Dennis Johnston - gifted therapist
• the Fiddle - my drug of choice
• Dan Chouinard - fantastic man of music
• Sima Shumilovsky - sweet old world musician
• Eric - great 12 Step man
• The Meintsmas - committed and loving
• Earl Lindner - rock of a man
• Kevin Jackson - gifted with music
• Christopher Raymond - A Mac Genius
• Chris J - good program man
• Leo - my leader and my conscience
• Hank - my first sponsor who is gone now but still lives in my head.
• Scott - my second gay sponsor
• music - heals me and excites me
• Justin - friend and busy guy
• Eric - friend
• Clem - friend
• Christian - friend
• Blaine - friend
• Sasha - friend
• James - friend
• Casey - friend
• Marc J - friend
• Tim K - friend
• Dustin - friend
• Geo - friend
• Joe L - friend
• Ross M - friend
• Joseph S. - friend
• Mario - gifted, loving, caring man
• Joseph Perry - friend and my TM teacher
• Christof - friend
• Michelle - friend
• Max - friend
• Dontray - friend
• Tyler - friend

• Zach - friend

I feel like a load has been lifted.

I am feeling like a load has been lifted from me. I am beginning to clear the deck of deadwood and emotional loads. I enjoy people who are caring, healthy, centered, loving, honest, open and willing. I have put up with too much recently of the deeply needy folks and, though I will continue to be available to them, I am concentrating on my own care and feeding with healthy people. I just got to the end of my rope and it is a good thing. I am so blessed.

My Gratitude List for Today:
• Sobriety - A gift only HP can give when I let him
• HP - My HP does Miracles in the here and now, today is a miracle.
• the program - my daily reprieve and NOT my own doing, very spiritual on an increasing basis these days.
• Christa the Phaeton - my motorized office and companion and definitely me
• my home - beautiful, peaceful, stately, quiet.
• the beautiful North Shore of Lake Superior
• my health - excellent
• Don - a quiet powerful man and a good friend, and really really funny
• Chris M. - my new sponsor and a real inspiring guy.

• Damien - Superb actor and a good man and extremely psychic, a lot of blessing in a man.

• Ronnie - friend and a kickass woman

• Mikey - gifted and insightful

• Dustin - powerful, insightful, insane thinker, and a thoughtful man
• Jim - my best friend and a real rock
• Larry - a good guy and Jim's significant other and fun and funny.
• Duane - a superb man and a wonderful friend. An Iphone addict too!

• Beryl Wells - my favorite insane artist and phenomenal woman of the world
• Virginia Howard - One awesome woman

• Aaron - Gifted, my right hand man when he is around and sometimes by phone.

• Harry Waters - Fantastic Director and Drama Coach on the M4D Project

• Ryan Rollinson - the new M4D stage manager who uses Twitter and Facebook almost as much as I.

• Dewey Lysen - fantastic on the keyboard
• Steven - good friend and nuttier than a fruitcake. I am not sure how he makes it but he does.
• Rob - the man who completed Duane's life
• Victor - he cares and that is wonderful
• Pastor Alika - who breaks open the word like no one else and keeps me working on the connection with Jesus.
• the folks at Kwanzaa Presbyterian - my family with prayers and support
• my mom and dad - gone but here
• Bill - my wonderful brother who goes way beyond in support and care
• Noel - my sister in law who understands
• Eric - my eldest Nephew who is moving his family back here from the east coast.
• Lucinda - the wonderful wife of my Nephew Eric
• Nate - the funny and fun second Nephew
• Jessica - Nate's wonderful wife and a grand woman
• Nick - The Youngest Nephew and a brilliant musician
• Lydia - Eric and Lucinda's little daughter
• Minnesota - I love this state
• Tara - A great member of Kwanzaa and a super prayer
• Arlene - A wonderful woman of Kwanzaa
• Gerry - Super woman and a woman of God from Kwanzaa
• Tony M - he understands and cares and really is way beyond me in many ways
• Christian - Brilliant, good man
• Kent - Excellent Musician and slowly learning.
• Cassidy - a totally wonderful man, he has been given many gifts, with HP he is making it and that is super to know.
• Timmy - Talented and gifted man, sometimes love is tough, prayin for him
• The Lattin Family, and all the 14 children, owners of Wit's End County Store and Bakery, Beaver Bay, MN - demonstrating the Kingdom to the world
• Steve H - big heart and a big man of sobriety
• Lois Koyama - a woman of God
• Michael and Debbie - Loving the world with Music
• Technology - Makes a lot of things happen as a tool
• Ben Speiser - Super, sweet and very intelligent
• Jason - brilliant and devoted lover of Ben
• Tom Scholla - been with me for a long time
• The Gang of Knitters around the Yarn Garage - creative and challenging
• Brandon Randolph - stunning man, my own secret hero
• Larry Eckhart - funny fun and devoted man
• Bob Moore - gifted artist
• Margo - sweet friend
• Jo - very intelligent and very caring
• Polly - awesome woman

• Bill - the Judge with the mostest
• Dennis Johnston - gifted therapist
• the Fiddle - my drug of choice
• Dan Chouinard - fantastic man of music
• Sima Shumilovsky - sweet old world musician
• Eric - great 12 Step man
• The Meintsmas - committed and loving
• Earl Lindner - rock of a man
• Kevin Jackson - gifted with music
• Christopher Raymond - A Mac Genius
• Chris J - good program man
• Leo - my leader and my conscience
• Hank - my first sponsor who is gone now but still lives in my head.
• Scott - my second gay sponsor
• music - heals me and excites me
• Justin - friend and busy guy
• Eric - friend
• Clem - friend
• Christian - friend
• Blaine - friend
• Sasha - friend
• James - friend
• Casey - friend
• Marc J - friend
• Tim K - friend
• Dustin - friend
• Geo - friend
• Joe L - friend
• Ross M - friend
• Joseph S. - friend
• Mario - gifted, loving, caring man
• Joseph Perry - friend and my TM teacher
• Christof - friend
• Michelle - friend
• Max - friend
• Dontray - friend
• Tyler - friend

• Zach - friend

The available group of sane sober folks

My Gratitude List for Today:
• Sobriety - A gift only HP can give when I let him
• HP - My HP does Miracles in the here and now, today is a miracle.
• the program - my daily reprieve and NOT my own doing, very spiritual on an increasing basis these days.
• Christa the Phaeton - my motorized office and companion and definitely me
• my home - beautiful, peaceful, stately, quiet.
• the beautiful North Shore of Lake Superior
• my health - excellent
• Don - a quiet powerful man and a good friend, and really really funny
• Chris M. - my new sponsor and a real inspiring guy.

• Damien - Superb actor and a good man and extremely psychic, a lot of blessing in a man.

• Ronnie - friend and a kickass woman

• Mikey - gifted and insightful

• Dustin - powerful, insightful, insane thinker, and a thoughtful man
• Jim - my best friend and a real rock
• Larry - a good guy and Jim's significant other and fun and funny.
• Duane - a superb man and a wonderful friend. An Iphone addict too!
• Virginia Howard - One awesome woman

• Aaron - Gifted, my right hand man when he is around and sometimes by phone.

• Harry Waters - Fantastic Director and Drama Coach on the M4D Project

• Ryan Rollinson - the new M4D stage manager who uses Twitter and Facebook almost as much as I.

• Dewey Lysen - fantastic on the keyboard
• Steven - good friend and nuttier than a fruitcake. I am not sure how he makes it but he does.
• Rob - the man who completed Duane's life
• Victor - he cares and that is wonderful
• Pastor Alika - who breaks open the word like no one else and keeps me working on the connection with Jesus.
• the folks at Kwanzaa Presbyterian - my family with prayers and support
• my mom and dad - gone but here
• Bill - my wonderful brother who goes way beyond in support and care
• Noel - my sister in law who understands
• Eric - my eldest Nephew who is moving his family back here from the east coast.
• Lucinda - the wonderful wife of my Nephew Eric
• Nate - the funny and fun second Nephew
• Jessica - Nate's wonderful wife and a grand woman
• Nick - The Youngest Nephew and a brilliant musician
• Lydia - Eric and Lucinda's little daughter
• Minnesota - I love this state
• Tara - A great member of Kwanzaa and a super prayer
• Arlene - A wonderful woman of Kwanzaa
• Gerry - Super woman and a woman of God from Kwanzaa
• Tony M - he understands and cares and really is way beyond me in many ways
• Christian - Brilliant, good man
• Kent - Excellent Musician and slowly learning.
• Cassidy - a totally wonderful man, he has been given many gifts, with HP he is making it and that is super to know.
• Timmy - Talented and gifted man, sometimes love is tough, prayin for him
• The Lattin Family, and all the 14 children, owners of Wit's End County Store and Bakery, Beaver Bay, MN - demonstrating the Kingdom to the world
• Steve H - big heart and a big man of sobriety
• Lois Koyama - a woman of God
• Michael and Debbie - Loving the world with Music
• Technology - Makes a lot of things happen as a tool
• Ben Speiser - Super, sweet and very intelligent
• Jason - brilliant and devoted lover of Ben
• Tom Scholla - been with me for a long time
• The Gang of Knitters around the Yarn Garage - creative and challenging
• Brandon Randolph - stunning man, my own secret hero
• Larry Eckhart - funny fun and devoted man
• Bob Moore - gifted artist
• Margo - sweet friend
• Jo - very intelligent and very caring
• Polly - awesome woman

• Bill - the Judge with the mostest
• Dennis Johnston - gifted therapist
• the Fiddle - my drug of choice
• Dan Chouinard - fantastic man of music
• Sima Shumilovsky - sweet old world musician
• Eric - great 12 Step man
• The Meintsmas - committed and loving
• Earl Lindner - rock of a man
• Kevin Jackson - gifted with music
• Christopher Raymond - A Mac Genius
• Chris J - good program man
• Leo - my leader and my conscience
• Hank - my first sponsor who is gone now but still lives in my head.
• Scott - my second gay sponsor
• music - heals me and excites me
• Justin - friend and busy guy
• Eric - friend
• Clem - friend
• Christian - friend
• Blaine - friend
• Sasha - friend
• James - friend
• Casey - friend
• Marc J - friend
• Tim K - friend
• Dustin - friend
• Geo - friend
• Joe L - friend
• Ross M - friend
• Joseph S. - friend
• Mario - gifted, loving, caring man
• Joseph Perry - friend and my TM teacher
• Christof - friend
• Michelle - friend
• Max - friend
• Dontray - friend
• Tyler - friend

• Zach - friend

Today I tried to get some honesty from a friend but he lied overtly to me. I have had it. This is rare but I am just not going to give any more attention to this man. Unfortunately for today, he missed an opportunity to meet a great guy in the field he wants to work in that I met with today. This friend has really helped me with my sobriety but he has been working at separating himself with me for a long time and now I just give up. I want no more contact with the man.

I took a man out to Pride Treatment today who helped me stay sober also. He has been out on the run with Meth and he was in awful shape. He had a dime sized hole in his arm where a needle abcessed and then broke the skin. He had been trying to keep in clean with bleach. It was terrible to look at.

I went to a super meeting tonight and just rejoiced at being with people who at least for that hour, had a desire to stay sober. And I have a grand group of people who are genuinely following God and living the joyous sober life. We know how to have fun, we enjoy life, we no longer have to "keep two sets of books." I just need to stick close to people like Chris, Mark and Marc, Jim, Don, Tony, Millie, Ronnie, and Mikey. They make me happy with their love and support. No more winers and gripers, no more liars and phoneys. Thank God I am so blessed.