Retirement for a day Sunday

I am grateful for: Sobriety, HP, the program, Cassidy, Christa the Phaeton, my home, my health, english muffins, Don, Jim, Larry, Duane, Rob, Pastor Alika, the folks at Kwanzaa Presbyterian, my mom and dad, Bill, Noel, Eric, Lucinda, Nate, Jessica, Nick, Lydia, Minnesota, Snow, Winter, Tara, Arlene, Gerry, Tony M, Christian, Damien
• Timmy
• The Lattin Family, and all the 14 children, owners of Wit's End County Store and Bakery, Beaver Bay, MN
• Steve H
• Victor
• Dustin
• Ko and Lo
• Michael and Debbie
• Technology
• Ben Speiser
• Jason
• Tom Scholla
• The Gang of Knitters around the Yarn Garage
• Brandon Randolph
• Larry Eckhart
• Bob Moore
• Margo
• Jo
• Polly
• Dennis Johnston
• the Fiddle
• Dan Chouinard
• Sima Shumilovsky
• Rob
• Eric
• Virginia
• The Meintsmas
• Earl Lindner
• Kevin Jackson
• Christopher Raymond
• Chris J
• Gary
• Leo
• Scott
• Dick
• Hank
• Tom S
• music
• Justin
• Eric
• Clem
• Christian
• Blaine
• Sasha
• James
• Casey
• Marc J
• Tim K
• Dustin
• Geo
• Joe L
• Ross M
• Joseph S.
• Joseph Perry
• Christof
• Michelle
• Max
• Dontray

A couple of crazy days. Did you ever hear me blog about how naive I am? Well, just got off the phone with a man who explained that everyone else knows what has been going on with him and I was totally unaware. I have been made aware of this before. Yesterday a guy called and was really rude to me and I did not buy into his stuff and finally, in frustration, he said, "Don't you every get mad?"
As a recovering drunk, I cannot get mad. Anger is not an option. Mostly I just take a look at where the person is coming from and I understand what moved them to do whatever to me and with that understanding, I cannot be mad. The other times I truly am naive because I cannot and do not choose to believe that people would be lying to me like they do.
I do a lot of praying because I know a lot of people who are very needy. The people who are using and killing themselves I pray for particularly because that is the only thing that really works.
Yesterday I facilitated in a Presbytery Meeting of our Synod. The topic was racism and Kwanzaa trained us all to facilitate. It was held at my brother's church, First Presbyterian of Stillwater. I saw a number of folks out there that I know. It was great to be serving with Kwanzaa. That church is such a blessing in my life.
When it comes right down to it, I could not make it without my faith in God. I have been particularly rebuffed and attacked and hurt these last two days on a number of fronts. However I turn my life and will over to the care of God and he will not leave me nor forsake me. I do not understand that, however I get great solace from knowing that God is piloting this ship. Amazing things happen.
I decided to not go to Kwanzaa today because I just need to decompress. Hopefully my room mate will leave me enough space to do that. I thought he would be gone for the day since he left last night and generally is gone for quite a space of time. Unfortunately he returned about a half hour ago so I am going to just hole up in my room and let him take over the rest of the house.
I am going down to work out now.
I am so blessed.