Lesson of the Trunk

I am so strange. I am such a wimp sometimes. Gopher State Roundup was great. Kwanzaa was super. As I put the violin in the trunk, sat down in the car, the trunk warning light showed "Open". I went back to the trunk and it was locked and jammed. The strap from the violin case was not fully in the trunk and it jammed the mechanism. In the trunk was my violin and all my ID with my checkbook and all credit cards. I probably over the next day tried to unjam it with the remote, the key and the switch in the car to no avail . I kept turning it over but then would create more and more negative scenarios, very expensive repair, just not being able to get in the trunk without drilling into the trunk, etc. Over and over I would turn it over to God, and then in a minute or two, I would pick it up again. I hate doing that. One of the things I got from Gopher State was the experiences that even in sobriety, even without your own involvement, crazy or negative things would happen but just turn it over. I have heard that a million times but man, did I have a hard time doing it. I talked about it the Sunday at the Slim House meeting and shared it with program friends and sponsors. Monday morning I had a meeting with sponsee and I shared the story then. Each time I shared it I got more and more relief from picking back up the anxiety and negative speculation. After the meeting Monday morning with the sponsee I drove back home and for one final time before waiting until Tuesday and taking it into the car dealer, I tried the key. It opened. Just turn it over Bob. Whew.

I am so blessed and sometimes a program wimp.

My Gratitude List for Today:
• Sobriety - A real joy today and a daily reprieve
• HP - My HP does Miracles in the here and now
• the program - my daily reprieve and NOT my own doing
• Christa the Phaeton - my motorized office and companion and definitely me
• my home - beautiful, peaceful, stately, quiet.
• my health - excellent
• Don - a quiet powerful man and a good friend, and really really funny
• Zach - challenges me and supports me.
• Jim - my best friend and a real rock
• Larry - a good guy
• Duane - another best friend

• Dewey Lysen - fantastic on the keyboard
• Steven - good friend and nuttier than a fruitcake. I am not sure how he makes it but he does.
• Rob - the man who completed Duane's life
• Victor - he cares and that is wonderful
• Dustin - powerful, insightful, insane thinker, and a thoughtful man
• Pastor Alika - who breaks open the word like no one else and keeps me working on the connection with Jesus.
• the folks at Kwanzaa Presbyterian - my family with prayers and support
• my mom and dad - gone but here
• Bill - my wonderful brother who goes way beyond in support and care
• Noel - my sister in law who understands
• Eric - my eldest Nephew who is moving his family back here from the east coast.
• Lucinda - the wonderful wife of my Nephew Eric
• Nate - the funny and fun second Nephew
• Jessica - Nate's wonderful wife and a grand woman
• Nick - The Youngest Nephew and a brilliant musician
• Lydia - Eric and Lucinda's little daughter
• Minnesota - I love this state
• Tara - A great member of Kwanzaa and a super prayer
• Arlene - A wonderful woman of Kwanzaa
• Gerry - Super woman and a woman of God from Kwanzaa
• Tony M - he understands and cares and really is way beyond me in many ways
• Christian - Brilliant, good man
• Damien - Superb actor and a good man and extremely psychic, a lot of blessing in a man.
• Kent - Excellent Musician and slowly learning.
• Cassidy - a totally wonderful man, he has been given many gifts, with HP he will make it.
• Timmy - Talented and gifted man, sometimes love is tough
• The Lattin Family, and all the 14 children, owners of Wit's End County Store and Bakery, Beaver Bay, MN - demonstrating the Kingdom to the world
• Steve H - big heart and a big man of sobriety
• Lois Koyama - a woman of God
• Michael and Debbie - Loving the world with Music
• Technology - Makes a lot of things happen as a tool
• Ben Speiser - Super, sweet and very intelligent
• Jason - brilliant and devoted lover of Ben
• Tom Scholla - been with me for a long time
• The Gang of Knitters around the Yarn Garage - creative and challenging
• Brandon Randolph - stunning man
• Larry Eckhart - funny fun and devoted man
• Bob Moore - gifted artist
• Margo - sweet friend
• Jo - very intelligent and very caring
• Polly - awesome woman
• Dennis Johnston - gifted therapist
• the Fiddle - my drug of choice
• Dan Chouinard - fantastic man of music
• Sima Shumilovsky - sweet old world musician
• Eric - great 12 Step man
• Virginia - very good friend
• The Meintsmas - committed and loving
• Earl Lindner - rock of a man
• Kevin Jackson - gifted with music
• Christopher Raymond - A Mac Genius
• Chris J - good program man
• Leo - my leader and my conscience
• Hank - my first sponsor
• Scott - my second gay sponsor
• Tom S - long time friend and my plumber and the Scholla Racing guy
• music - heals me and excites me
• Justin - friend and busy guy
• Eric - friend
• Clem - friend
• Christian - friend
• Blaine - friend
• Sasha - friend
• James - friend
• Casey - friend
• Marc J - friend
• Tim K - friend
• Dustin - friend
• Geo - friend
• Joe L - friend
• Ross M - friend
• Joseph S. - friend
• Mario - gifted, loving, caring man
• Joseph Perry - friend and my TM teacher
• Christof - friend
• Michelle - friend
• Max - friend
• Dontray - friend
• Tyler - friend